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Wounded but recovering.... Recently someone close to me hurt me very deeply. So badly in fact that my first reaction was to lash out at them, which only made me frustrated with myself. Then I cried...and cried...and cried. That gave me a headache, a runny nose and bloodshot eyes. Next I poured my heart out to a concerned friend who tried to console me but began heaping more venom on the incident than it warranted and I had to stop that. Pulling away from everyone and everything, I climbed into my little poor, poor pitiful me shell and shut the door. Thank goodness for a demanding job...and my liking for hot meals, a warm bed and indoor plumbing. To afford the latter it was necessary for me to attend to the former...So I ventured out of my self imposed prison of depression. I peaked around the closed blinds which were keeping the house despondently dark, to see that it is bright and sunny outside. The thermostat read 64 degrees in my living room. That temperature matched exactly the one in my frozen heart. Oh my goodness, I suddenly realized that I was allowing the person who hurt me to plunge my entire life into a frigid dungeon. Well, enough of that. I refuse to give them the upper hand! Quickly I opened all the blinds and turned on the heat to 70degrees. I did the essential housework, then took a hot shower and lavished on fragrant lotion. Putting on my most comfortable jeans and sweater, I turned on my computer. Without hesitating I made reservations for a trip to the mountains and sent a friend an email in hopes they could join me. Won't be leaving until Tuesday though so have to stay busy until then. Right now I will work on my November budget, finish preparations for tomorrow's Bible Study, then call Amanda and reschedule with her to finish online forms she wanted me to help her with. Once I get that taken care of I am going to take a ride in the country. Driving and listening to music on the radio always changes my mood. Tomorrow, Monday, I'll lead the Bible Study, bake something yummy, help Amanda with the forms, play with her , and pack. Tuesday morning I'll enjoy my computer class and as soon as it is dismissed I'll "Head For The Hills"! When I get back on Thursday evening I'll catch up on all the latest news around here. Friday I'll spend continuing my quest for a wholesale source for online sales to supplement my income. And that evening I'll be meeting friends for dinner and dancing at John A's. Saturday and Sunday my sister and I will focus on finding a home and property that is affordable and will meet our needs. She is doing small rescue and fostering and I am involved in adult ministry called "A Hand Up" that includes Bible study, job search and budget counseling, and the eventual goal of opening a "House Of Hope". It is difficult to find a place that covers all our activities but I'm sure it can be done. A week from Friday I am hosting a dessert buffet for my friends and family who are helping me with a yard sale that will include second hand treasures, crafts, Christmas decorations and bake sale. My spare room is over flowing with items to sell. One fellow has tents to set up in the yard and other men are helping him set it up along with tables and clothing racks. The ladies are bringing items they are donating and helping me arrange and price them. There is a Harvest Craft Sale that Saturday at the school next door to my house so we are hopeful we can lure a lot of their customers over here to check out our merchandise. By Sunday, November 9th I'll have forgotten what had me so depressed. In fact, just thinking about all this has reminded me that life is too rich and full and blessed to leave room for self-pity, anger or remorse. I think I'll take a minute right now to write the person who offended me and tell them that I forgive them and still love them...just won't put myself in a position to be hurt like that again. Thanks for listening. God bless you, every one. |
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10/26/2008 12:45 pm |
Joy , My Friend , I am sorry you are going though a tough time . Remember The POWER that ANY one, or ANY thing has over "US" , can ONLY come from "US". We give the power ,AND by the same token have the ability to retake THAT SAME power . GIVE your self the power to enjoy "YOUR" life ...Sergio
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10/26/2008 12:58 pm |
WOW... you are bouncing back beautifully. I'm amazed at your fullfilment in life. Wonderful attitude and I am sure you will be successful in all your endeavors. Thanks for sharing.
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10/26/2008 1:34 pm |
Awww Joy, I feel your pain. Right now I'm in the midst of reading a book called "The Power of Losing Control." (Sorry, it's at home, and I can't remember the author's name off hand). For a self-help book (BTW, I seldom look at them, but this one makes a lot of sense) I would recommend it highly. The gist of it is this: in an out-of-control world, we have the power to validate ourselves. We have no control in expecting it from others. It sounds like you are off to a good start.
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10/26/2008 3:19 pm |
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10/26/2008 5:21 pm |
Joygirl, Sorry to here You were hurt like that. You sound like You have control now, hang in there.
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Joygirl, good for you. You are a great example to us all. Enjoy your break 
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Glad you climbed back on that horse and did not let it keep you down. You are a special lady, and don't let anyone tell you different.
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