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What's next? My wife is no better, but she is also no worse as far as I can tell. As for me, I have another contract that begins in just about 3 weeks....this one is for 6 months with the possibility of becoming permanent at that time. The biggest positive of the position is that one of the folks who already works there is someone I know quite well. She and I worked together for a long time...4 or 5 years...at the old job. She is smart and funny, and I really enjoyed working with her a lot. She isn't someone about whom I ever fantasized, though I'm not quite sure why. On the other hand, another woman with whom I used to work has appeared in my dreams more than once. IShe isn't someone I ever fantasized about in my waking hours, so I'm not sure quite why she has appeared in my dreams. I had one of her last night, as a matter of fact. In my waking hours, I imagine myself with someone tall, athletic, smart, and funny, but the woman who has appeared in my dreams is really quite small--5 feet or less--and it puzzles me why my subconscious has fixated on her to the degree that it has. (I've dreamed of her more than once.) I suppose that, although I imagine a taller woman would hold greater appeal to me (because I'm tall myself), in reality, the height of the woman really makes very little difference to me in terms of the woman's appeal. But she (the woman about whom I have dreamt) and I haven't ever interacted much, really, and, in truth, I doubt that I will ever see her again at this point because neither one of us now works at the company where we met, we've never spoken to each other about anything other than work issues, and we've never even so much as flirted with each other.. Objects of lust OFTEN have much more to do with fantasy than reality, I think. This woman that I dreamt of certainly fits that bill. As a person, I don't really know her well at all. And I know that the best waking erotic experiences have been with ones I knew because those experiences enhanced relationships that were already meaningful to me on other levels. Still, there IS something to be said for the pleasure that comes from novel first experiences, and I suppose it is in that context that fantasized she has meaning to my subconscious. This has nothing to do with the new job I have, of course, but it DOES give a clue as to my active fantasy life. Those who can, do. Those who can't, fantasize about doing. Reality is highly overrated, I think...but sometimes, so is fantasy. |
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I think that we all have fantasies of one type or another....it's normal. Reality never seems to be as good. It is what it is.......
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