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My Reflection Today... DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU GET OFFENDED WHEN THE TRUTH IS SPOKEN... If you continue to read.. do not judge for you were warned ahead of time.. But for those of you who continue to read.. I want you to know.. that sometimes life is not easy.. emotions get in the way.. feelings get involved.. and that is how I see the things that have been happening here in blog-land... Sometimes we get so tired of hearing it all but what I Reflected on this morning is the ultimate letting go... I don't know how to fix what is happening here in SFF and sometimes I have to remind myself I cannot 'FIX' others.. People who SAY one thing in blogs... and then attack or provoke in Chat.. I do not understand that kind of behavior... I am saddened by all the two faced conversations.. it reminds me of that song.. Smiling Faces.. sometimes pretend to be your friend.. Smiling Faces show no traces of the Evil that lurks within... that is how I see those who make peace talk in blogs and provoke in chat.. you do not want it over.. you want to win at some sick game you are playing.. I also don't know how to fix the many people who have had enough of what has been going on.. I tried letters.. I tried e-mail... This part includes myself too... Life is not SFF.. Life is not worth all the aggravation caused by the tyrants here... Life has much more meaning than what we are putting our energy into right now.. I don't know if just letting them be is the answer.. but I do know it will bring the peace within.. we all know.. EVERYONE who has eyes can see what and who they are.. They do it to themselves as we have done nothing but laugh about the last week or so.. This too will have to end.. A wise friend told me just a short while ago.. Someone needs to be the Mature Adult in the matter.. and I think that will fall on us.. We need to be the Mature Ones.. I know for me.. I'm tired of playing with immature people who cannot look at themselves honestly.. Actually my point and your point has been made.. we have done what we set out to do.. expose the ones needing exposing.. now we need to let it go otherwise we will look just as they.. immature.. Negative brings Negative.. let them have the world of negative they live in.. and let us continue in the land of positive... for ourselves. Here is the part of my reflection that I do not think everyone will agree with by it is and comes from my Spirit.. who is what always brings me back to reality... who is very much alive and the chipper happy Soul.. Well.. I woke up this morning and here is what it said to me... Today is Good Friday... My favorite week of all year long.. Holy Week.. and I have missed the most of it.. not been to church one time.. and my Spirit is paying the high price for it.. Negativity set in with all this posting I have done.. when in REALITY those people I mentioned.. in the end.. mean nothing to me.. it's not about them and me.. it's not about them and you.. it's ONLY about the one who gave his life for me.. for you.. and for all.. no matter what kind of person they/we are.. What I am saying is this.. I am a Christian.. to me it matters not which denomination of Christianity I follow.. you follow.. and even if you are not a 'Christian' you follow a peaceful maker correct? One who wants and demands peace? Today on Good Friday once again.. I am reminded about a man who suffered and died for what he believed in... Love for all.. and Salvation.. the road I have travel these past few weeks is not the road to Salvation.. but the road that is leading the people I am tired of.. why on earth would I want to be on the same road as them? My knowledge of what my Christianity means and the reason he died on that cross is what REALLY rules my life.. when I come back to my senses.. I wonder how he would handle all the situations and people here.. I wonder how he would Run SFF.. I wonder how a man who died for ALL... would handle all the hurt, mistrust, and evilness in this place.. or would he just shake h is head..and say... MILLIONS are dieing a real FIGHT overseas.. YOUR LIFE IS JUST NOT THAT IMPORTANT ON SFF... YOU HAVE MISSED THE MESSAGE OF WHY I CAME IN THE FIRST PLACE... I WILL PRAY FOR YOU.. BUT RIGHT NOW... THERE IS SOMEONE WHO HAS NO HOME TO LIVE IN.. NO ELECTRICITY TO SEE WHAT IS BEING WRITTEN IN SFF.. NO FOOD ON THEIR TABLE.. maybe he would say... LOOK.. I LOVE YOU.. BUT THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT PROBLEMS THAN WHAT YOU FACE HERE.. THERE IS A MAN LAYING IN A DITCH OR A HOLLOWED OUT GULLY THAT A BOMB JUST EXPLODED IN... THERE IS WAR ALL OVER..AND REAL EVIL WAR EVERYWHERE.. PEOPLE KILLING PEOPLE.. NOT MAKE BELIEVE THREATS.. GET REAL.. LOSE YOUR THOUGHTS ON THESE OTHERS WHO MEAN NOTHING... WHAT REALLY MATTERS IS WHAT I DID TO SAVE YOU AS WELL AS THEM.. WHAT REALLY MATTERS IS HOW YOU HANDLE YOURSELF IN THESE HARD TIMES.. WHAT MATTERS IS THE RELATIONSHIP YOU HAVE WITH ME... IF YOU FOLLOW... FOLLOW... STOP TOEING THE LINE.. _____________________________________________ That was my reflection this morning.. I could probably go on and on.. but I think you know what I mean.. Does this mean I agree with what is happening here? No.. Does this mean my feelings have changed on the people I do not care to associate with? No.. I don't think we have to LIKE everyone we meet.. but I do think I can be a better Christian.. and on today.. the day that marks the remembrance of why I am a Christian.. I will say this.. If Jesus can say with his last dieing words.. Father forgive them for they know not what they do.. than I shall follow.. and pray that same prayer..to include everyone.. Father.. forgive them/us/me for they/we/I know not what they/we/I do... I hope at 3pm today.. you take a moment out of your daily gripping.. complaining.. feeling sorry for yourself.. for just a moment to remember the one who REALLY died on a cross. Here are words to a song that might help start mending all who need and want to be mended without pointing fingers.. without accusing this one or that one of starting it.. words that show the healing that needs to start the only place that means anything.. within self.. Have a great Easter all.. for today he dies.. on Sunday new life is given.. I pray I come back from this weekend in new life... _________________________________________ Take Away... by Yolanda Adams Take Away Take away any desire in me that hurts You Take away anything that stands between You and me I want to be what You've created me to be It's my desire that you find favor in me Lord, take away anything that displeases You Take away any evil thought with in me Take away anything that proves to break Your heart I want to be in sweet communion with You It's my desire that I do everything You want me to do Lord, take away anything that displeases You Remove all doubt, all insecurity Erase all hate, all iniquity Discard all the fear found deep within m Lord, take away anything that displeases You (Take away Lord, take away) Take away any desire in me that hurts You Please.. take it away..  ___________ Find the humor each day holds.... Gina |
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4/6/2007 4:39 am |
I came back to ask one thing.. from my FRIENDS.. I pray you love me enough that when I stumble again.. cause I will.. I am human as everyone else is.. but my reflections are the true person within.. and I may need your help next time I travel down 'their' road of Evil and Distruction.. If I stumble down that road again.. please love me enough to tell me what you see.. please love me enough to tell me the truth.. please care about me enough that knowing me personally you will pull me back to where I crave to be.. in the light of the only Cross that matters... Thank you all for being the friends you have been to me.. I do love you all.. we all will stumble..and hold each other up from time to time.. for that I am grateful.. I thank God for crossing our paths.. and SFF for being that road that I met you on.. Smile..  we all will get through this.. I believe it..  Gina ___________ Find the humor each day holds.... Gina
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4/6/2007 6:56 am |
yes , i wonder myself, chatroom is like kindergarten , he said she said. it goes on and on and i belive nothing is going to change ever .so we just go on and not looking back , after all one can leave chatroom and not argue. shame and really sad cause a lot of nice people seem to get hurt. well yes4 have a blessed easter and keep up the spirit. theres life outside chatroom! !  ingrid.
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4/6/2007 8:15 am |
"We ALL are part of this, you know?...........how WE ALL ACT and REACT will ultimately "tell the tale" and make the difference! "Five great enemies of peace inhabit with us---avarice, ambition, envy, anger, and pride; if these were to be banished, we should infallibly enjoy perpetual peace."...Petrarch Can we ALL say "LET IT BEGIN WITH ME"? (we don't all have to like one another equally but we should be able to tolerate, don'tcha think?)" ===================================================================== Jes, I posted the above just now on another blog and after having read your words I am repeating it here.....I hope you won't mind........YOU, my friend, are truly an "instrument of peace"......I wish I could write like you do.....you express the feelings of many so well........God Bless you for "making a difference"!
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4/6/2007 8:29 am |
Hi Gina:  I hear you and know how frustrated you must be feeling at not being able to stop this bullying and fighting. I'm afraid I don't even know what problems are going on in the chatroom but there is a lot of it going on in the magazine and blogs. Its just a sense of people trying to hurt other people's feelings and of no-one being safe at any time. I think what happens is that someone is bullied or insulted, they leave the group and join under a fake name. For a short time they appear to be nice, then they start making snide comments and provoke people into fighting with each other, all the while getting revenge against whoever they feel hurt them in the first place. I really never expected to see this going on in a seniors group. I have seen this in several groups I have belonged to in the past--its always the same. Bullies never bully alone, they suck up to other members and get allies against their perceived enemies. I know how to end all this once and for all. If everyone would just restrict their comments to the blog or article and NOT COMMENT on other members' replies, then it would be over. That is how all 12 step groups work--no commenting on what another member says.
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4/6/2007 9:13 am |
Father forgive them for they know not what they do.. than I shall follow.. and pray that same prayer..to include everyone..---------- we need to say this to our selves every day minute hr. i think to remind us. yes life is sometimes hard and we are so humane but smile and be happy for we are children of god.he made us and we are his.......and totally agree we cannot change the thems in the world we can only change ourselves ..... when i learned this i thanked god for it. and it freed me . i can only pray for them only pray ....... live laugh love ------ leslie
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