I am prefacing my profile with a much needed explanation and apologies all around. Today, May 17, 2009, I've just made additional changes to my original profile that I had posted for the first time in October or November of 2008; and also to my previously updated profiles. There had been lapses in my visits to SFF...
First, because of a a close friend's declining health and eventual death. After that, I was so busy playing catchup with all of my usual responsibilities, I barely had a moment to catch my breath! Then my computer became seriously infected and I took it to a repair shop. I wish you already knew me, because by the time I explain the next event which kept me off the SFF website you may wonder whether or not I'm a compulsive liar!
What truly did happen was a lack of communication by the repair shop to me, and the repair shop actually lost(misplaced) my computer tower! I was too busy to go to the library, frequently, to use their computers, and I did not want to impose upon busy friends... so I was unable to return emails in a timely manner to men who caught my attention...
I was really busy with responsibilities, and there was no time left for the briefest of pleasures--for example SFF. Time passed, and by the time I got my tower back (not repaired, either)... when I finally had enough time to answer emails from interested parties--I found that their contact with me, if any, had been erased!
Apparently, I had let my membership due date slide by, and about all that was left to indicate that I was or had been a member(of SFF) was my profile, for the most part! I renewed my membership, and noticed that they only acknowledged my membership from this, latest, payment date! There were men I was genuinely interested in pursuing through SFF, but I had not kept a personal list of who they and their usernames were. This really was a sad realization for me, since I recall that there were two truly wonderful men that I had not had the time to answer. All record of their email(s) to me had been erased by SFF, apparently.
These men had said that they were very interested in corresponding with me...but the library was closing in a few minutes! I tried to send brief emails so that they would know that I was as interested in them as they were in me. But time ran out!
I've already stated that all trace of their existance, to me--at least, was "erased". So if the two of you ever happen to check back with me...although I hold little hope of that happening...It would take divine intervention for that to happen! But I am ever the optimist! If you, or any others who formerly had interest in me, have been frustrated that I still haven't responded to your emails...this explains why, in painstaking, but truthful detail. I sincerely apologize to everyone with whom I have lost contact. I am saddened by all of this.
Now, to the essence of my updated profile. When asked to what degree I was "active", I thought I was being asked whether or not I was involved in triathalons or whether I was a "couch potato". A friend, more intelligent than I, informed me that I was being questioned about how frequently I date. I hate to admit it, but I haven't dated in a great long while. Not that there's anything wrong with going out with a nice guy. It's just really true, where I live,anyway, all the desirable men are already taken.
I like to spend time with intelligent, kind, happy, and easy-going people who do not prejudge others. I am highly allergic to cigarette smoke and cologne. For conversations to be fulfilling for me, there needs to be a real exchange of interesting facts &/or ideas &/or a heartfelt expressing of one's ideas, beliefs, and questions. I do not enjoy spending time with anyone who has a temper, wild mood swings, or expects it's their right to make me do things Their Way. I hold as highly valuable my right to make my own choices. I like people who can simply agree to disagree, and who don't develop a hurt or combative attitude if my views or choices are not the same as theirs.
I love to joke and laugh in ways that are, of course, not hurtful. I enjoy people sharing the wisdom of their years without expecting me to then agree with them. Everyone's life has had different experiences from which to draw their own life views.
I believe that the God of the HOLY BIBLE, as I interpret it, wants us to enjoy our lives and to do so abundantly, while we are helping those less fortunate. I have a relationship with God that supercedes "warming the pews on Sundays" or using the church most importantly as one's "social club". I think a lot of "so-called Christians" , (who often have the best church attendance record), have given the world at large a very incorrect view of what true Christianity is.
It's important to me, everyday, to live and breathe laughter! I cherish joyous relationships! The ideal I reach for on a daily basis, and often attain, is to be truly at peace and experience a continual joy at my deepest levels. I aim to explore and attain goals, while simultaneously being content, for the most part, for what I already have attained.
I believe I am truly mirthful, joyous, generous,
curious, considerate, unselfish, content, and happy in the deepest regions of my inner "woman" most of the time. There are those days when I feel a bit "lost", too.
I do long for my soul-mate with whom I and he could share our most profound &/or original &/or most deliriously funny thoughts and experiences! I would experience him as my best friend, in whom I'd have a lot in common... yet be delighted by the addition to the relationship of our differences; then, and then alone..., would I allow myself to view him as potential, future husband material!
I appreciate the splendor of the universe and planet earth--the landscapes, the waters, and the creatures that inhabit these. I have a strong sense that we must all start taking better care of our earth before more precious plant and animal life disappears, and eventually... we,too, as we pillage and pollute our planet.
Seeking knowledge and wisdom are two of my quests. Learning to ballroom dance and scuba dive are on my list, too! Besides my serious side, there is a fun-loving creature that loves to try new things in new places with wonderful, socially-conscious people.
It is very important to me that I be accepted for what I am now, and for what I'll be evolving towards in the future. Please judge me on my ideals, thoughts, personality, even appearance (realistically)... but please don't judge me on the basis of some numeric value. Everyone really does mature at differing rates.
My Ideal Person:
I'm looking for a man who is both an active learner and a teacher of what he has already learned. Someone who prefers contentment and joy, rather than being in a constantly complaining state of existence. Actually, I have described with whom I think I would be very compatible, in my description of myself. I thought that by describing myself in detail, I would increase the chances of finding my soul mate. If my ideal friend and soul-mate likes me...he will try to contact me.
I'm looking for an intelligent, kind, curious, open-minded, and easy-going man. One who is not bossy or domineering, but is as curious about my views as his own. I'm looking for a man who is a good communicator, who communicates as precisely as the way a great journalist writes; in such a way so his words can mean one and only one thing. Very precise! This really eliminates a lot of strife between people!
Although men are welcome as friends, from whom I may learn to understand men, in general, better... as well as friends with whom to learn and laugh about other things--my ideal man would be someone who is seriously looking for that special woman friend who would meet his criteria for the wife he desires!
He would be very appreciative of all the beauty in the universe(s), and of the Heavenly Father who created earth for mankind to enjoy and take care of. He would be warm-hearted, funny, intelligent, serious when appropriate, and fun-loving and light-hearted at other times. He would be warm-hearted, not holding onto past affronts to himself, regardless of what they were--a very forgiving, open-minded, non-judgmental man living in the present.
My ideal man--if and only if he becomes my soul mate and husband--would be as interested in satisfying me(I hope I'm not breaking any SFF rules here) in the bedroom as in getting satisfaction himself. He would be in love with being in love with me, and he'd express that passionately. He would also like to hold hands while walking. He would be very affectionate and sensitive throughout the day. Lots of caressing and hugging! He would be romantic with me & keep that alive in our life-relationship.
He would share his innermost thoughts and feelings with me, genuinely wanting to share them with me...knowing that I would not be judgemental. He would not have a temper, wild mood swings, or have a critical, hurtful nature. He would be very willing to agree to disagree, without his ego becoming bruised. He would be so confident(not arrogant) of himself that I wouldn't have to "walk on eggshells" to keep from wounding his ego.
He would be articulate, yet not control conversations.
In fact, very importantly, he would not be a manipulator! He and I would experience life honestly as equals, without playing "controlling" games. My ideal man would, in short, be wonderful!
He would be wise, or at least wisdom would be one of his important quests. He would love exploring the flora and fauna of the land and oceans of this planet, and also the civilizations created by man. He would be a life-long student and teacher, too. However, let's not forget all the pleasure and joy that our Creator wants us to have!
My ideal man would be easy-going and not let little things annoy him! He would give and receive laughter as he lives and breathes! Life is to be enjoyed while we are helping the less fortunate! My ideal man would be content, happy, and truly at peace and joyful at his deepest levels (most of the time. We all have a few of those "other" days).
In going about what he loves to do, the only thing this man would miss is that he wasn't able to share his most profound, wisest, even, dare I say, his most deliriously happy moments and experiences with his true soul-mate, his wife.
This man would be unselfish and have a strong sense of contributing to the world in the way that God desires. He must have a true relationship with God, and not just be a Sunday "pew warmer". In fact, he may have not yet found a church body that truly practices Christianity in a spiritually mature way!
And, last, but certainly not least, he would, of course, besides his sense of humor, be honest, and highly value true sincerity. He would prefer my inner self to be more beautiful than my outer self.
Incidentally, if he fits this description, and if he also likes who I am ... then he needs to be able to take a leap of faith and decide that, if a seemingly sizable age difference exists, it should not keep two soul-mates apart! Dream and live the impossible dream!
Be joyously alive with your soul mate!
Sincerely,
Angelina34
P.S. Please read the section under "More ...responses"
if you are genuinely interested in getting to know me.
Thank you for your time. I hope that you feel it was well spent!
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