| LOL.....One More Time....... |
Jun 22, 2008 12:46 pm
181 Views | Alot of you keep asking how i can possibly be alive when i am dead,,,,geesh....lets try it this way...lol...she is pretend...and she has super powers...that big red S on her chest does not stand for Sarah,,,lol,,,it stands for Super woman.....
Now I could have came back in the room under a different name and pretended that i was another pretend woman who was not the pretend woman that i was pretending to be...but somehow that all seemed way too much,,,,,I mean you all know that i put commas after everything ...that my "i" key sticks and will rarely make a capitol because i spilled coffee in my keyboard....and who else says hummmm....geez and golly as much as sarah.....lol
what it all boils down to is that i lost my cyber heart and you all know how it is with your first love,,,,you never forget him...i still love him...still talk to him on occasion.,...but there is nothing like a bullet creasing your scalp to knock some sense into a girl....lmao
I got a little carried away for sure...but i get like that when i want something that was not ment for me to have..
So maybe this will make the last of you understand and maybe even help someone else not make the same mistake...there is love out there in cyber land but tread carefully as if it were real..... | |
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| Hello....Hello.......... |
May 21, 2008 10:18 pm
257 Views | Okay thanks to Gist....a few weeks in intensive care and she is doing okay,,,,,,
It was nice to drop into chat tonight and say hello....set my timer for one hour and off I went....
The people that always loved me were there to say hello and those who think I need a shrink did not say a word.....wow.,...talk about talking this whole thing seriously....lol
Guess I am not the only one......
summer has hit alaska and it is daylight 24/7 and it is absolutely beautiful....things grow like crazy with all this daylight...especially the lawn....and I spend alot of time mowing it....
the government came to their senses and put my polar bears on the endangered list so I do not have to worry about them anymore....and they have stopped the aerial hunting of wolves for a minute....such a sad bit of business that is...
As for me I am right on track and accomplishing everything that needs to be done...will be teaching vacation bible school on the first of june....been up to my elbows glue and water colors....and for a week after school I will be the Island Guide to 27, 5 and 6 year olds.....God grant me the strength........oh sorry that is for addictions....well i guess kids are my addiction....so it works...I will never forget again that they are the only thing in the world that will love you unconditionally except for your dog.....
Bought a tent the other day.....going to do some camping on my vacation this year and stick close to home...maybe catch a fish....lol...have no idea what to do with it then but it will be fun for the kids...
So Sarah is back...and I am sure you will see her in the rooms....I know she is sorta weird, but she has a good heart and i think she has learned her lessons...at lesst she knows where safe is....lol
will be good to see you all again.....night and tc | |
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| A Quick Hello |
May 12, 2008 6:04 pm
349 Views | hello everyone....
damn i miss you all so much.....i feel like I have been pulled out of my life and tossed into the witness protection program....lmao
I am accomplishing alot right now...getting a divorce....the adoption....and..trying to let go of my 18 year old with as much grace as possible...dang no wonder i am a little crazy...that is a plate full all by itself...lol
i want to thank everyone that found me outside the room....it really helps to be able to talk to ya all on im or email.....like being in the room with out the complications.....It is good to pour a cup of coffee kick up my feet and talk with some understanding friends.....
thank you all for being there........ | |
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| Please Forgive Me |
May 3, 2008 7:51 pm
1027 Views | I would like to apologize to anyone that I caused any undo stress.....I did not think for a minute that anyone would think that the real me had hurt herself.......
Sarah just had to go.........
Anyone that has talked with me knows that I have an extreamly busy life......but sarah was becoming an obsession..she was everything I want to be.....she had friends....a place to go on lonely nights.....was always welcome....and men....OMG,,,,she was a flirt ...men wanted her....lusted after her....and a few even maybe loved her....
Sarah would use every excuse in the world to be in that room....and all of a sudden I was late for work....skipping church....missing my classes..blowing my nose because some man I had never laid eyes on had broke my little cyber heart....one night I did not even have time for chutes and ladders.....
Sarah had to go......
i had tried to leave the room before and could not do it.....there are to many of you that i love, worry about and care for.....so I made my plan.......
I exterminated Sarah.......
There are many of you that I would like to get to know better.....the real you....not the room character....because obviously I cannot keep the two seperate...I am not unstable....and would never hurt myself....I like me a bunch....just do not know how to play pretend with out getting involved too deep.......
My name is monetta ....my middle name is jean....put it all together and you can find me at the Y....would love to email or chat on IM...just have to stay away from that room....
once again I am sorry from the depths of my soul...and thank you for caring about me..... | |
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| Will She Never Learn ??? |
Mar 28, 2008 9:24 am
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ok...ok.....i have know idea how she got her hands on a key board again....but she managed,,,lol......sometimes I think Sarah thinks she is 16.,,,when she knows damn well we are 60....and we should know better....i gave her the whole speach on pretend and cyber space and how it was just not real...but low and behold she just does not listen...falls hook line and sinker for it all over again....does she need to be loved that badly??? She says she doesn't.....does not need anyone....well if that is the case why does she keep putting her heart out there to be broken...
Get Sarah.......get back behind your thorn wall and stay there....shooo....scat....grow up sarah....act your age and get over yourself !!! | |
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| Sarah is in time out.................. |
Mar 19, 2008 6:41 pm
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hello.....You all know me....I am the one that drags Sarah by the arm...kicking and screaming from the room because she does not have enough sense to get off of the puter and go to bed....
I am Sarah's Reality...I made Sarah a promise once that if she ever left the rooms for any length of time I would say her good byes and so as of right now,,,,,,Sarah is in time out,,,,,she forgot it was all pretend......
Sarah is one of the most loving, giving, and trusting persons I have ever met...but she has been used, beaten, and broken so many times that she created a wall of thorns out of each hurt and has been living in her thorn prison for 13 years,,,,,I knew it would take someone that was very special and knew all of the right words to reach her.
When this chat room came along, I thought it would be great therapy because it would be safe....she could flirt and play and not have that horrifying fear of heart ache.....again...
The great part was ....It Worked !!! All of you were so welcoming and she could tease and flirt and have a wonderful time.....and she did....I watched her come alive....I think I even saw that hedge of thorns lower a few inches.....She was happy....
Then out of no where one of you wonderful men blind sided her and touched her heart (if not more) right through cyber space...I saw the shine in her eye, the glow in her face and could hear a breathlessness in her voice...Then he had his way with her and walked away....wow...heartache in cyber space....did not think it possible....
So all morning long I have been watching Sarah patching and repairing and adding too her thorn wall and now.... there she sits,,,,,,encased in saftey...not sheding a tear..not feeling sorry for herself....not blaming.....just safe,,,,,transforming slowly back to the ice maiden that she was ,,,,,,
As I look at this new wall of thorns i have to wonder if there is a man anywhere that would have the gentleness and patience to reach her before she is gone ....and maybe once again....make Sarah smile..........
Sista's I love you all..........Be back when I stop bleeding.......... | |
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