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hello.....You all know me....I am the one that drags Sarah by the arm...kicking and screaming from the room because she does not have enough sense to get off of the puter and go to bed.... I am Sarah's Reality...I made Sarah a promise once that if she ever left the rooms for any length of time I would say her good byes and so as of right now,,,,,,Sarah is in time out,,,,,she forgot it was all pretend...... Sarah is one of the most loving, giving, and trusting persons I have ever met...but she has been used, beaten, and broken so many times that she created a wall of thorns out of each hurt and has been living in her thorn prison for 13 years,,,,,I knew it would take someone that was very special and knew all of the right words to reach her. When this chat room came along, I thought it would be great therapy because it would be safe....she could flirt and play and not have that horrifying fear of heart ache.....again... The great part was ....It Worked !!! All of you were so welcoming and she could tease and flirt and have a wonderful time.....and she did....I watched her come alive....I think I even saw that hedge of thorns lower a few inches.....She was happy.... Then out of no where one of you wonderful men blind sided her and touched her heart (if not more) right through cyber space...I saw the shine in her eye, the glow in her face and could hear a breathlessness in her voice...Then he had his way with her and walked away....wow...heartache in cyber space....did not think it possible.... So all morning long I have been watching Sarah patching and repairing and adding too her thorn wall and now.... there she sits,,,,,,encased in saftey...not sheding a tear..not feeling sorry for herself....not blaming.....just safe,,,,,transforming slowly back to the ice maiden that she was ,,,,,, As I look at this new wall of thorns i have to wonder if there is a man anywhere that would have the gentleness and patience to reach her before she is gone ....and maybe once again....make Sarah smile.......... Sista's I love you all..........Be back when I stop bleeding.......... |
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 3/19/2008 7:00 pm |
Sarah I hope it isn't long before you come back...I have aways enjoyed talking with you in the chat rooms. So some ding-a-ling man got to you. I know its easy for that to happen. I also understand about the walls...even tho mine don't have thorns in them they exist. Just know that we are here for you if you need us. Hugs to you Linda I'm looking to the future and it's out of sight, only in the end shall I take flight.
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 3/19/2008 7:56 pm |
Sarah,Sarah...........come out come out, where ever you are............we miss you......
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3/19/2008 8:19 pm |
Ahhhh...sista....you are needed here.....here is a bandaid for your wounds....your sistas will wrap you in their sisterhood love and protect you....
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3/19/2008 8:35 pm |
Heres a hug for you.
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3/19/2008 9:44 pm |
AWwwwww Sarah ,.... Big warm hug for you. You will be missed! But sometimes we do need a time out to regroup and recuperate , until then take care of yourself! Luvshack Luvshack   
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3/19/2008 10:24 pm |
((((((((((((((((((((Sarah)))))))))))))))))) ....come back soon where you're ready! "Anything worth having is worth waiting for." 
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3/19/2008 10:55 pm |
...hurry back Sarah...bring that beautiful dog too...
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3/20/2008 2:14 am |
So sorry Sarah...take your time and come back when u are ready! Hugs Daisy 
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3/20/2008 5:17 am |
Hi Sarah, I go to chats once in a while, maybe we had said hi to one another. Yes time out is always good, my dear. We will miss you... we are family. In the meantime Good luck, good health, God bless you That's all my heart can say Good luck, good health, God bless you And guide you on your way No matter where you wander As long as we're apart Good luck, good health, God bless you and keep you And keep me still in your heart When you're ready, we will be here waiting for you. Lovingly yours, Rose
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3/20/2008 7:41 am |
Good Luck Sarah, I feel your pain my Heart is bleeding as I type. I too am taking some time out so I can heal.I have never stopped smiling no matter what tragedies I experience through this thing called Life. I hope you find someone to make you smile again and I hope that for me also God Bless You.
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3/20/2008 9:53 am |
I completely understand Sarah. My first reaction to pain is like yours, to fall back to the cave, to the darkest, quietest corner, and to build defenses while I try to heal. Don't stay there too long. It doesn't work. The darkness exaggerates the ghosts of what could have been....and we all know wounds respond better to sunlight, and laughter, and friends and family petting us. Just don't go into the chat room where the guy is who hurt you. If he comes in, iggy him. Then you won't have to see his name. And pull those thorns back down. Part of being alive is being wounded ever so often. Thank the powers that be that your heart is not dead, and it is capable of loving, and caring.  Belle
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3/20/2008 5:24 pm |
Sarah, Dear chat friend. I will miss you and hope that you heal quickly. We can do that, build a wall to keep the hurt out, but sometimes we also keep the love from friends out too. We all will wait for you to come back, and if you ever need to talk, let me know? I always enjoyed seeing you in chat. Hugs, and heal quickly,   When the power of love overcomes the love of power, then there will be true peace. -- Sri Chin Moi Gosh Bless One and All........Peg
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3/22/2008 1:25 pm |
hello Sarah,, am so sorry you have been hurt by this cad, look forward to your return soon,
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3/22/2008 2:53 pm |
Sarahhhhhhhhhhhhhh BIG HUG!!! 
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3/24/2008 7:35 pm |
Sarah, time heals and i wish that it does quickly for you. would like to see ya back in your fiesty mood
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5/2/2008 12:47 am |
Sarah..... Ford. Any day above ground, is a good day! 
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5/3/2008 3:48 am |
well said bella a donna !
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5/3/2008 10:58 pm |
Sarah, You cant believe how happy I was when I heard that you were still with us. My heart went out for you, thinking how I first met you, in SFF, and how kind and friendly you have always been to me. Right up to the evening before I heard the terrible news. I too, have been through a terrible trauma in my life Sarah, and turned to SFF for comfort. Even though I have only been on SFF for the past 4 months, I still feel like a misfit!!!! Getting myself into unintentional trouble with certain roomies, and all I was doing was trying to make friends, be accepted, and fit in. In the past Sarah, I have always had a very hectic, busy life, raising 5 beautiful children, lots of friends, and with a man I adored for 35 yrs, and BOOM BOOM all was gone, we grew apart over the years, we became incompatible, and decided to call it a day with our memories, dreams, and 35 yrs of our lives together. Shocked, lonely, feeling sorry for myself, staying at home alone for 2 years, not going out, I felt my life was gone for good, I was under the doctor for suicidal tendencies!!! After a lot of help, and most of all having SFF to chat to each evening, slowly made my life worth living. I am also like you a very sensitive lady, probably because of the pain I have gone through,over the years, it certainly makes us gullable and weak!!! Certain SFF members can be very hurtful, especially the ones who have been on the site for many many years!!!!!!! I too look for the love again from a special man, I have not found him on SFF, and dont think I ever will. There is someone out there Sarah waiting for, kind and gentle ladies like ourselves. Wherever or whoever he is, he will oneday find us. Until that day comes, I just enjoy to go in the chat, and except the nice things with the bad that I see in the chat rooms. Lonelimess is the worst feeling in the world. Yes, somebody gives us attention, plays with our feelings, they do not realize how much grief and hurt they are putting us through. I dont talk to much with the men, and certainly dont get involved personally with any relationships. As you may notice I concentrate more on friendship with you ladies, to make me laugh, and enjoy my evenings. I stopped most of my hugs because one SFF, looked up my profile, because she thought I might be lesbian!!!!! oh my goodness!!!!!,I tried writing g/f at the end of my posts, as I had spoken quite some time, and it made me feel closer as a friend only, in return I get a reply telling me "I am not yr g/f, a g/f is somebody you know for many many years!!!! Sarah I wanted to be swollowed up right there in the chat room, how cld she be so cold, especially with a newbie. now I am afraid to give hugsss to all.You probably notice I only give to a few ladies I feel are sincere and kind. However Sarah, friends tell me, to be myself. I cant stop getting into trouble, maybe its my different sense of humour being British, and sometimes miss half the posts, and answer things that gets me into trouble. Again I get nasty comments, and go off line and cry and cry, and think why do I go on there, next day Sarah I find myself there again, sometimes for hours, neglecting my chores, not keeping up with my appts, as I stay late, and cant pull myself away from the chat. So I do understand how you felt also. sometimes I cry when I sign out of the chat, but I STILL GO BACK IN, I suppose its desperation for friendship, and somebody to talk to. Sarah, I see reading the blogs, that you too have been hurt, and my heart goes out to you. Please dont give up on us!!!!!! We miss you, and I personally would love to get that nice happy feeling when I see your name enter into the room. PLS SARAH come back in for us, I know everybody, especially certain people who loves you so much, misses you terribly. I too look for genuine friends, maybe we can be friends, and good company for eachother outside the chat. Then it would not seem to all that we have to go into the chat all the time!!!!! WE WONT NEED TO!!! right Sarah Warmest thoughts Faith0 (jayne) would love to hear from you. SEE YOU SOON SARAH hugsss
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5/9/2008 2:53 am |
My dear Sarah, I have been through with feelings like yours. Faith's blog could speak for me too. There are some help in the doctor office, you just have to believe in them, doctors. I am still alive because of all the medications like the happy pills. I guess, women at our ages go through with the emotions like ours. We will have to manage it well and never give up live that God gave us. I miss you in the chat room. Please come back to chat with us very soon. A lot of big hugs to you. Siamese 2
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