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Timing is everything My brother-in-law died yesterday. I have to confess that I didn't like him much, although my sister seemed to have been a good influence on him over the years--they were together around 30 years, I guess--because he mellowed over the years some. I thought he was a bad combination of dumb, mean, stubborn, and uneducated. Fortunately from my perspective, I wasn't around him much the last 20 or so since I moved away from where I was born and raised. I'm not going to try to go back for the funeral next Friday. That's the day my wife has her echo, and I don't have anyone to stay with her in any case. I spoke to my sister on the phone yesterday, and she's ok with my not coming. She knows what it's like to care for someone over an extended period of time and how hard it is to juggle things. Her husband had cancer for the last 5 years or so, and he had been doing very poorly recently, so she had come to terms with it. I hate missing the funeral. I think it's really important to be at those kinds of life-altering changes in the lives of people who are important to us. But trying to juggle making the trip while dealing with my wife's tests and the new job would simply be too much. I have a bigger confession to make: a part of me is envious of my sister. Her loved one is out of his misery and she can begin to heal. Such is the state of what Faulkner (ne Falkner) called the human heart in conflict with itself. |
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