9/25/2009 2:13 pm
Last Read: 10/11/2009 3:26 pm
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..... and tell me to wise up. I am so tired of dreaming dreams, and them not coming true. I am so tired of the story not going the way I wrote it.
I know, the solution is easy enough. Quit dreaming impossible dreams and writing my own scripts, right?
At this point, it is a specific incident that brought me to this place of frustration. However, its been a long standing habit with me in all aspects of my life, but mainly in the area of the heart.
Rationale thinking tells me to step back, don't rush in, don't try to make things happen. Some times, more times than not, my rationale thinking flies out the window.
I really feel like having a pity party and a good old fashion crying fit.
I thought if I wrote this out, shared my frustrated mind with you all, I'd feel better. Didn't work. I do know though that tomorrow will be a better day.

On another note, Fall is my favorite time of year. I wish I was out walking in this right now. I can almost smell the crispness and the falling leaves.
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3442 posts 9/25/2009 2:28 pm |
Won't kick your butt, will hold your hand....
"Truth, wisdom, love, seek reasons, malice only seeks causes" Johann Kaspar Lavater
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2153 posts 9/25/2009 3:06 pm |
You have a lot of good company here my friend. I have mused about this for some months now and my answer (for myself) is that when we are young and full of naivete and hormones are raging, we overlook much more than we do now, having lived through so much of life. Perhaps we are more protective, or even cynical. What we might have forgotten in the throes of youthful passion, now stays on our mind and keeps us awake at night. That goes for both men and women I am sure. Keep the faith in yourself - that is most important.
Head in Clouds Feet on Ground
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1438 posts 9/25/2009 3:30 pm |
Kick you in the butt!!!! Never, never you are just too nice of a lady for anyone to lay a hand or foot on you in anger.
Life dear lady is mountains and valleys. You will never experience the full joy of the view from the top of the mountain until you have experienced the depth of the valleys.
Keep the faith, believe in yourself because not any of us are perfect.
It took me a long time to get here, but here I am now!
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607 posts 9/25/2009 3:33 pm |
aaah OLA my friend with beautiful woods like in this picture how could ya be miserable life is good if i were you i would get behind one of those trees and PEE lol i know i would pee on one of those trees its mans thing about peeing on trees 
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2659 posts 9/25/2009 3:39 pm |
(((HUGSSSSS)))
Been there!!! Autumn is my favourite season too. Go out and kick some leaves around....and have a good howl !!!!!
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6646 posts 9/25/2009 3:40 pm |
Ola-why not spend some time on your farm, rake, hoe, harvest a few things? I'm going to send you a gift! Whatever is frustrating you will looker smaller with a big long hoe in your hand. Love and Hugs girlfriend, AneMac
"He who knows not the world, knows not his own place in it." Marcus Aurelius
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3040 posts 9/25/2009 3:59 pm |
Ola... never ..you are such a good friend to everyone..you have a heart of gold and when the time is right it will be treasured... LOVE YA...Mary
Sometimes things fall apart so that other things can fall together.. ♥ .. MARILYN MONROE.
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7106 posts 9/25/2009 4:07 pm |
((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))) I will just wake you up!
If you are doubting something, doubt your limits
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2221 posts 9/25/2009 4:18 pm |
there's nothing wrong with having a good 'ol fashion crying fit. it clears the air / and the head too... and then there's tomorrow! take that walk! autumn is the best, isn't it...
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856 posts 9/25/2009 4:30 pm |
Ola you can kick my butt anytime lol
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5455 posts 9/25/2009 4:45 pm |
(((((Ola)))))) A hug instead of a kick. It's not wrong to dream and it's not wrong to have hopes. True we need to stand back a little and make sure the lay of the land is as we think it is but often we have the tendency to be trusting. It's a shame that there are people out there who live to make others miserable but don't give up.. just wrap yourself in bubble wrap for awhile.. hugs again
The longest journeys begin with just one footstep
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4050 posts 9/25/2009 4:53 pm |
You can have a pity party. Just make it a short one. Then go out and do something special for yourself. Even if it's buying a new bottle of nail polish at the dollar store.
I'm a dreamer, too. My whole world is seen through rose colored glasses. I believe that we are disappointed more than others but the joy and love we feel is more intense. I'd say we got the best deal!
Hang in there and never, never, never give up!!!
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13073 posts 9/25/2009 5:01 pm |
karinpepita: thanks, a gentler comfort  winkay: your words ring so true. I think to there is this element of "time" that faces us as we get older. Wanting things to happen and wondering how much longer the wait. 1gasilverhead: thank you kind sir. over: you made me laugh real good and I must tell you, there were a few times, back in my youth, where a trip out behind a tree was part of the night.  Rocketship: Thanks for the hug. Kicking leaves sounds like a pleasurable activity. AneMac: thanks for the gift ... I'll go check and see what it is. You're right, a good work out on the farm may do me some good. I have some fields to harvest this evening and made a date with my nephew to do it ... so that will be good. sycamaria: thanks for the hug drew: You are so right. In fact, I find that usually that's all it takes is for me to just allow myself the self-indulgence of a good long cry and then I'm all better. 
Thanks everyone for your encouraging words. I do feel better. I got out of the apartment for a couple of hours and did some productive volunteer work ... which always is good.
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1411 posts 9/25/2009 5:04 pm |
Unfortunately nobody can tell you to wizen up except you yourself and this isn't going to work either. Next thing you know, you are dreaming again. That's just human nature and how boring would be life without dreams. Sorry...no kick just a 
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13073 posts 9/25/2009 5:06 pm |
egor789: LOL okay, bend over! msturtlebug: thanks for the hug. In this instance, it wasn't the wrong or hurtful actions of another, it was just my disappointment in expectations I shouldn't have had. But, you know what? I think another thing that might help is to get some of that bubble wrap and just start popping!  SSGal: I agree with you. I would rather feel the intensity of my emotions than not feel anything at all. 
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12362 posts 9/25/2009 6:00 pm |
OK....I will kick you, and you can kick me.
Hopelessly optimistic here myself.
Belle
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10174 posts 9/25/2009 6:19 pm |
I have found when I do have a good hissy fit cry I feel much better after wards..so go for it.....punch a pillow..throw it.... kick it and scream at it....cry and let it all out ..then run a bubble bath ..have a glass of wine and remember how many people here REALLY care about you..and that there is always tomorrow for another dream...HUGS...RED
Living my life for the memories I will have....... not the regrets of what never was......
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815 posts 9/25/2009 7:33 pm |
I'm only willing to give yoyu tons of Cajun hugs... no boot in the hiney!
I Hope You Dance - Lee Ann Womack
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6756 posts 9/25/2009 9:02 pm |
Ola, No kicks-just hugs..  
Treasure what you have, Tomorrow you may not. have it, Be Thankful. for today. 
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5971 posts 9/25/2009 9:22 pm |
Hi Karen. We all have days and things that crop up from our own doing or that of others. just take a step back and observe and i'm sure you will see the path in a different light.

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1487 posts 9/25/2009 9:55 pm |
OK if you feel better, consider yourself kicked. I still dream impossible dreams. I still suffer. I shall not stop dreaming.
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31 posts 9/25/2009 10:36 pm |
Ola, I've been there, When I'm are down and feeling sorry for myself. I think of all those people that are blind,bed ridden and wheel chair bound. And say to myself thank god I'm alive walking, talking and writing this note, Take care of yourself and keep Dreaming
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11562 posts 9/26/2009 4:54 am |
Ola, Never a kick in the butt my friend. Writing it down helps in the long run, having a pity party is good too, a short one, and a good cry works wonders. I learn from all my experiences!
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5760 posts 9/26/2009 7:10 am |
"lean on me...when you're not strong, and I'll be your friend, to help you carry on-n-n" Hugs sister! No need for but kickin, you are doin that one quite well yourself. ya know we all love ya, doncha? Well we do!!!
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4077 posts 9/26/2009 2:06 pm |
Budetta: Me too. Yes No kick, but hugs comin your way alla time!!
How bout I drop by next month & we can yack & go too diner, & yack, & do stuff, & yack & think about stuff, & yack & whatever else you wanna do, then we can yack & yack some more. OK??
A call would be nice.
Take care, be safe, & Happy, Your BUD Bill
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13073 posts 9/26/2009 5:39 pm |
Thanks all for being such great people! 
Bud, just left a voice mail message for you. Hope you are getting the messages. I've left a couple in the past month. Catch you soon.
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469 posts 9/26/2009 6:22 pm |
Ola, did you take the picture in your blog? Where was it taken, if you know? It is outstanding and like yourself, I would love to spend sometime there, can almost feel the air, hear the quite.
Many of us here share the same feelings and issue you have put to words. Disheartening, isn't it? I have for a while now been struggling to compose a post, maybe series of post about dating as seniors in the hope that responses from reader might give me incite. Thank you for your post and to your friends who by their responses at least let me know I'm not alone. What is they say about misery loving company?
Give away freely whatever, you desire from others.
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13073 posts 9/26/2009 8:03 pm |
77566tex, unfortunately I did not take the picture, it would have been nice to be there so that I could.
I will be interested in reading your senior dating blogs. 
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975 posts 10/11/2009 6:03 am |
No kicks sending you a hug. Take a hissy fit if thats what you need to do
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