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First of all, thank you for your input. Thank you for caring enough about us to respond. Many of your ideas were new to me. And some I have already tried. My Cat- Scan and X-rays came back yesterday. As I expected, there was no good news in it. I think V.A. doctors are bureaucrats, filling in their time and pulling a paycheck. Pardon my venom on this, but that’s how I feel. I have changed V.A. Locations and doctors. But I still can’t get aggressive treatment. In our experience down here, Medicaid sucks. In Wisconsin all of Marlowe’s medical care was paid for. No matter what the procedure entailed. In Arkansas we owe thousands of dollars for medical bills which I haven’t paid, because I can’t. The pain clinic won’t treat us anymore because we owe them so much money. I don’t blame them. I’m not telling you all of this to get an “Oh! Poor boy.” I won’t get that from y’all anyway. We know that we are far from unique in our situation. All we have to do is read your blogs and talk to folks down here. It is a nation wide problem. The result of my last trip to V.A. is “we have to increase your pain medication.” Why am I not surprised? I spent six years battling alcohol addiction, spent 25 sober years in A.A. until I got drunk again, and had to get sober again. That easy not an easy task this time. I have never been a drug addict, except for alcohol. Believe it or not, I took a sort of twisted pride in that. No Coke, no Meth, no uppers, no grass, none of that crap. The booze had been life wrecking enough. Now I’m doing this thing with pain pills. Good Grief! This is not my drug of choice. Jim Beam is my drug of choice. If I want to get high I would drink again. Ole Jim is legal, readily available, cheap and dependable. It works every time. The outcome is disastrous, but it works. But I don’t drink any more. Nor do I want to. There is no upside to this crap I’m taking. The mood elevation is so slight as to be almost unnoticeable. And that passes very quickly. So I don’t really “feel better”because I take them. The pain relief is more noticeable but also passes very quickly, so I take more than I am supposed to. It’s a treadmill, a hamster wheel, a road to nowhere. O.K……That’s it. No more on this from me. I just wanted to blow like a whale and talk about it one more time. Thanks……..Oleonewho |
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8/1/2008 8:26 am |
 AnnTo err is human, to not laugh humane.
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8/1/2008 8:42 am |
There are many in this country in that position with their health care. Can you afford a medicare supplement thru AARP? I have heard they are pretty reasonable? I have been going thru some stuff also and they give me muscle relaxants for my back but no pain meds. I already have some pretty good co-pays with my new insurance we went on in February. The people who work on me tell me it is only going to get worse and that we americans can expect to spend a lot more on our own healthcare. Here in my state those on public assistance get unbelievable health care services many of which I can not afford and I have to say I really resent a system where people on welfare get BETTER health Care than do we working poor! As for pain management it is a slipery slope and I believe the doctors would rather just give you pills to keep you quiet then to try to manage your pain but I think there are many who do both Pills and Booze! They say that alcohol enhances the effectiveness of the pain pills.
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 8/1/2008 10:15 am |
It was good to read your blog. I have just written a pathetic letter TO AA on-Line as like yourself I am 25 yrs sober.Today I am in bed with a chest infection and feel rotten and the rotten antibiotics are making me depressed. I am so sorry for your predicament. The woman next door who has been my pal for 20 yrs is on MST and they just keep increasing it.She is in pain today.We phone each other because I wouldnt go in with my complaint.I have been attending AA and I never took anything else, like you. I always thought when you fought alcohol that God would not give us anything else, its such a horrible disease, and the stigma is there even tho' people say its not.If someone saw a drunk lying on the footpath they wouldnt pick him or her up, no they would walk over her.My friend next door is not getting much treatment, just building up her bones. I feel so sad for her as she had a hard life and was always willing to put in the work. Now she spends her days in bed.I think she is on 170mls of MST with something for breakthrough pain. Sometimes she is awake all night. Lifes a bitch. Im writing this just to you because we are brother and sister in AA. There is no love like one alcoholic for another. I will pray for you and think of you and take your pain killers, didnt you suffer enough.
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8/1/2008 1:29 pm |
very moving blog indeed, I have to take a variety of meds, some are pain killers, strong ones, Tramadol and CoHydramol, luckily my treatments are free over here.
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8/6/2008 9:08 pm |
Onewho and Sweetie......Please keep us posted...I would like to find out what, if anything, you are able to get the doctors to do. I hope that new doctors will make difference for you. God Bless. Barbe
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8/9/2008 7:11 pm |
As someone posted in your previous blog (I think it was Sing), medicinal marijuana makes sense, if possible. What harm can a 'doobie' do? My prayers go out to you. Peace and blessings to you. "Wisdom doesn't necessarily come with age. Sometimes age just shows up all by itself."
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